New Year, Stressed Me

Well well. We’re more than a week into 2018 and what a week it has been.

I gotta say 2018 didn’t start off the best for me. I had an anxiety riddled week, filled with a few sleepless nights and a lot of stress.

I decided to take a class over my break between fall and spring semesters. The class is labeled as a “capstone” class which is essentially a senior project type class. It takes all the information I’ve (allegedly) learned in classes relating to my major and applies them in a real life setting...supposedly. If the real life setting is just me staying up all night googling information about various companies in the entertainment industry then WOO. I am so qualified for that! That being said, projects are being handled, assignments are being managed, and I’m getting by.

I have a lot of hopes for 2018. I’m supposed to graduate in May, finally ending my academic career and beginning my occupational one. I don’t know where that will take me yet and truthfully, I don’t think about it much. I don’t like to think about it, mostly because I start freaking out. I wish I had some kind of reassurance that all the choices I’m making are the right ones. I don’t want to wake up in 5 years and feel like I settled for a career here when I could have a job somewhere more preferable. It’s stressful! But what always brings me back to reality is all the sh**. I have to do just to graduate…then I start to worry about that. So, you know…full circle.

Of course there’s other things I want to do in 2018, like get in better shape, work on my self-confidence, be more of an interesting person but at the same time give less of a damn about what anyone thinks. Example being, I recently started a new Instagram page called @alex.doesnt.know (this is not a plug, unless you want it to be) that’s actually centered around the blossoming world of the cosmetics. I actually really like playing with makeup and just spending an hour locked in my bathroom, listening to a podcast, and putting my face on. I watch YouTubers all the time and I try out the tutorials they put up and the products they recommend. The Instagram account was acting as sort of a vessel to show what I’ve done. I have had zero intentions of trying to get famous or gain any notoriety through this Instagram. It’s just something I thought would be fun. Naturally, I am riddled with guilt that it’s an incredibly narcissistic thing to do. I’m posting things I’m buying. I’m posting photos of myself. I’m trying to sound like I know what I’m doing when it’s probably pretty obvious that I don’t. It’s why I made the name of my account be “Alex Doesn’t Know” to establish right of the bat that I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know. I clearly have an issue maintaining things so we’ll see how it goes.

In an attempt to break from this cabin fever, I’m determined to go see a movie tonight. To do that, I need to finish my homework. An endless chore…

Ta ta for now. Hoping the best for all you have in store in 2018.


Alex, what’s something you’re enjoying in pop culture right now?

Well, I’ve got two things this time around…


The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel – Amazon Prime



As a huge Gilmore Girls fan I will jump at the chance to watch anything Amy Sherman Palladino is involved in. Even after Bunheads. Even after Gilmore Girls: A Year In The Life. Yes. I’m still a ASP fan through and through. I’ll admit that she has her ups and downs and when it’s not good, it’s really not good, but when it is…holy crap it is.

ASP and her husband Daniel received a 2 season order from their (INCREDIBLE) pilot The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel. It’s honestly Amy Sherman Palladino’s best work yet (and that’s saying something seeing as how Gilmore Girls is one of my favorite shows of all time) and you can really see what she can do when she’s given the freedom to make her own choices without a network stepping in (a wafty budget doesn’t hurt either).

The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel follows Midge Maisel, played by the wonderful Rachel Brosnahan (you might recognize her as Rachel from House of Cards), as she attempts to start a career as a stand up comedian in 1950’s New York.

The show recently won 2 of the Golden Globes it was nominated for, Best Actress in a Comedy and Best Television Series – Musical or Comedy.

Seriously, I could gush about this show forever. The characters are exciting. The writing is brilliant. The costumes are impeccable. The look and feel of the whole show is just…*sigh*…just go watch it.



Vanderpump Rules – Bravo



Everyone needs a guilty pleasure. Since Jersey Shore isn’t on anymore, Vanderpump Rules fills that hole in my dark heart. That hole that actively enjoys watching vapid and fake 20/30-somethings try to be fabulous and interesting in West Hollywood, under the guidance and employment of Beverly Hills Housewife, Lisa Vanderpump.

This show is the text book definition of reality television. The storylines are repetitive. The cast members have all slept with each other. They say ‘like’ every 5th word and their world revolves around when they can get another drop of alcohol in their system. And I cannot get enough. This show should be winning Emmys for how entertaining it is despite it being totally fake. I want all the cast members to be friends but I live for the drama from week to week with them.

Do I recommend this show to everyone? No, not at all. But it’s currently in its 6th season and has aired over 100 episodes, so…clearly something is working.